inside

inside your eye 

i become conscious of my every movement and keep your laughter

inside the tiny pocket of my jeans

i hide you between the 

chapters of my favorite book

your smile, your smile, your smile,

inside me, inside the whole whole of me, you add new parts i didn’t think i could need

you work your magic 

you build me up from

inside, inside of me you are free

inside of me you are known.

i call your phone but you won’t answer

you don’t have a number anymore.

inside my mind i keep pieces of you

pieces no one will ever know

your laugh, your smile

the people i know now 

will never know you

live inside of my

insides

inside inside

my dreams

have started to become fragmented in the way my memory has

your life is not as clear, switch the lens at the optometrist and hope for magic

inside the mall

you fell asleep inside the car waiting to drop me off

pick me up off the floor

inside the house we made a home

(take me home)

inside my mother’s arms you used to lay

inside the world we had created

inside a nuclear device known as a family inside inside inside

you called me little

when i thought i was big,

but i’m bigger now, inside the age of knowingly not knowing and i know

inside my heart of hearts

i will never know again